February 13, 2013
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It's going to happen...
Because no matter how much I try to bottle it in, I have to pour my heart out on the internet. Xanga just happens to be the venue, mostly due to the low volume of people reading this. It's almost like talking to the wall, but it's paper thin.
Anyway, last week, I got dressed, shaved and power walked my ass to a job interview. I'm not going to reveal which company it was, but the job was a dish washing position. Very simple work once you know how to operate those industrial-sized washers, which is easier than inserting a dish into a Playstation. I went home thinking the dust had settled from the long war of trying to gain employment. I mean, I have massive employment gaps and the debt is climbing astronomically, thanks to student loan. On Monday, I opened my email and found the results of the interview.
"Your background and experience is truly valuable. Unfortunately, at this time, after careful consideration we have decided to pursue other candidates."
This wouldn't be the first time I was turned down for a position. I've lost count, to be perfectly honest, but... For some reason, that rejection letter hurt me the most. Apparently, I'm not even good enough to wash dishes! How much experience do I need to wash your fucking dishes?!? I was upset for a few days... very pissed off at the world and even more pissed off at myself. Here I am, 28 years old and severely depressed because I couldn't get paid to wash dishes for some company. I guess you can say that it was the straw that broke the camel's back.
So, I started thinking about me and where I'm headed in the next year, two years, five years, ten years, and so on. If I keep going down the same route, I'm not going to amount to anything. I'm going to die with piss-poor accomplishments and a shit-loads of regret. Hell, I won't even be worthy of a tombstone--and if they had to give me one, it would read "Here lies Fat Fuck who checked out of this world poor, alone, and pissed." Thinking about that, I reached a boiling point and decided it's time to fucking do it. It's time...
I'm creating my entertainment company.
If you've been keeping up with this blog, you know I've been flirting with the idea for the longest time---ever since I graduated high school (I've been here for a very long time). It's not the most logical step to take, but most companies never start off logical. The most successful companies were created from balls of steel and ice-cold resolve. This endeavor will be no different. It's going to be tough, headache inducing, and it might even kick my ass, but it's going to happen.
What falls into this entertainment? For starters, it will be comics and filmmaking. Original content. There's another aspect I want to include into the company and that's Freelance Illustration. We're going to start off small and make an anthology just get our feet wet. For films, we'll do shorts for the same reason. Once we're all set and comfortable, we will move on to bigger projects.
The reality of this is that I don't have all the resources, at the moment. Money is the biggest issue. Even if it's an internet based company, I'm going to need money for the domain, the web design, and whatever the fuck else. If I'm going to publish a line of comics, I'm going to need to get in bed with a printing company and that'll cost me. Maybe it can be all digital, but there's still some finances in that. Don't even get me started on film cost. That's why freelance illustration will come in handy, but the profits from that won't generate enough to sustain the company.
The second concern of mine would be finding the talent. By nature, I'm a do-it-yourself type of artist. By that, I mean that I do the penciling, inking, coloring, lettering and so on. In most cases, I have a writer that handles the script, but all the visuals are on me. To start a company means expanding my circle. To start a company means finding like-minded folk of various disciplines to pitch in, and trusting them to produce material in a timely manner. That's pretty huge to ask since I'm terrible at deadlines.
Ultimately, I'm going to have to clean my own house, so to speak. For this company to be successful, it needs a good leader/boss/founder. A good leader is someone who can bring out the best in people and accomplish goals. Those qualities are extremely important in the early stages of a company. Right now, I'm not leadership material because I can't even motivate poop to flush down the toilet. I'm going to have to change and adapt to this company---to the future. It's going to happen.
The end game or finish line is owning a building... with people in it! I want this company to grow into something big---something lovely. Like a hybrid of Marvel Comics and Lucas Films... or "insert major comic and film studio here." I want this to be BIG, but I also want it to be different and sport the greatest work environment ever.
I'm not Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Ted Turner, John Lasseter, George Lucas, or even Tyler Perry. I'm just a guy from Philly trying to bounce back from a series of unfortunate fuck-ups by combining the two things I love: Film and Comics. I'm trying to do something I should have done a long time ago.
It's going to happen... I already have the damn logo in my head, so it's going to happen. There's no choice in the matter.
-KG
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Comments (6)
best wishes for tremendous SUCCESS!
@Hunt4Truth - Thanks. I'll pray about it.
Did you ever look into Web design? You have some talent there I'd guess.
@Hunt4Truth - Not really. I used to think so, but style sheets and coding has grown beyond my understanding. Of course, opening up a book and reading it can cure that. Thing is, I'm either trying to draw, write, or job hunt my way out of debt... I really don't have time to catch up on CSS (and other things we don't even have names for).
On the other hand, I might have to go that route for the company because web designers are expensive these days. Pursuing someone and saying keywords like "company" and "business" will automatically spike up the cost. I'm probably going to have to do it myself... unless I befriend someone who doesn't mind an IOU or is just a plain angel of mercy.
We'll see.
You're right - everything starts as an idea, you just need to make it a /something/. Good luck! x
@OneYearToChangeMyLife - Yeah, it was one of those haunting ideas I couldn't shake... not permanently. It kept coming up and I suppose the stress of job hunting just made it take on a life of it's own. This endeavor is highly illogical due to my lack of experience, but, deep down inside, it feels right. For once in my life, I'm making the right move.
Thanks for wishing me luck. I'm definitely going to need it.
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